5. Confusion than daughters

 V. confusion than daughters
her mother m high and great maternal family has brought us prosperity and Zhang, in her words: They brought up woman has reached seven, the living conditions from the time it can not help but also so that we would like to live in this tight budget, it is more difficult, the last brother, precisely the distance between generations? sister angry at home, look no face, she moved into her dormitory units for a long time did not go home to take care of the mother's sister, my son brought home the first pile more embarrassing.
increase in the child, the mother's body and energy already serious overdraft, I have a rest to his mother calculations account, year after year of life, mother time to sleep every night around nine o'clock, in this time the mother will not stop the hands of the sewing, and when we advised her to sleep, and my mom always jokes of children, said: Busy Hong (hong night mean) on the awakened by the sound the call to light lamps. a small oil lamp, we will work towards how many times to wake up, the day the mother would have before dawn to get up early to make breakfast, from sleep to get up just a few hours, in the middle should be a wake-up times of the year down, compared to what the mother and the expense of others How much rest time? fear here is difficult to explain, the mother is so tired of living for children, which is how perseverance. mother many years of fatigue, disease premature wrap the body, after going to come down to earth help the kang edge to stand a long time to walk, a few years time, from father to children, Which, whether work, school, get up early, like it black, climbing night, my mother would let us eat on time, even drink a bowl of porridge, the mother never let us out of the house on an empty stomach. due to excessive fatigue due to swelling of the hands mother and deformation, walking is also very difficult to bend the waist down day by day, mentally looked very haggard , even if this further hardship of life, the mother will desperately to their work and home, the instigation of little kids too, she thinks her child is the capital, if not the child will lose the meaning of motherhood.
I suddenly feel in life, the mother of our little family dinner, and every meal, when my mother would sit quietly picked up her favorite side of the urge us to keep up to eat, hurry to school. My brother and I are like wolves with the same race with the (game) of eating, where the mother can feel it,UGG boots, what?
in my age of ten, I and other people's kids as they looked forward at last year's Spring Festival, and despite a poor but we know it is our happiest day, in addition to Ice cold, put firecrackers, we can see outside Yangko dumplings and dumpling in normal days it is difficult to eat, when to replenish the shortage of food at home, a monthly supply of flour to the mother will be saved, take it with Westinghouse Hu family home to 1: 1.5 weight converted into millet, corn Cha son. we can not eat surface, the arrival of the Spring Festival dumplings remind me of the desire to eat a big meal, and finally looked forward to the lunar New Year's dumplings It was hard tempting breakfast meal, meat and dumplings in the water in addition to the larger, but still eat out when the coin, every time people would say I am blessed to get rich, really kill two birds with the big thing, Haha, I can open eat them? I ate and ate mm mm too full to eat until finally put down the chopsticks, and when I came to the outer room to (kitchen) of the pot before the second Indian to see his mother in the cauldron there is also the second pot cook the dumplings, I wish I could eat a few, the mother looked at me and asked, asked limited to anyone, not just ask you get enough. In order to the mother that I eat very full, they touched the stomach, said: Why the anger she suddenly shouted at me together, not have enough to eat, my mother's rage is not because I eat more, then it is a kind of helpless, we are in a long period of the body, the stomach is difficult enough in the end, and the food one, said, no dinner, dumpling ah? children eat and not think about wearing this thing, made me want to get more, but since I no longer had to show my mother, appetite, eating a lot when stiff.
it not? family began meal, except the mother still picked up a pipe to do taken out of the old pipe down on the kang. do not tell us when the strange story of the three Northeast: for decades, I started pumping from a young age, and would like to avoid but also can not avoid (liao stop means) woven mm. It is often said: There are three strange Northeast ah to feed children hung up, embodiment, the windows papered out: it is because the glass very little, the average family can not afford to buy, plus the old society inherited from the old houses, window frames and more for the paste paper design, we are aware over the Northeast wind is large, twice a year the wind blowing, one can shave six months. If papered on the outside can not only withstand the pressure of the wind in winter can also prevent frost on the window paper by dragging the house down. better family conditions, and will papered windows and then after few more bark paste one way or another increase in tension, and then click to soybean oil will increase the window paper window paper brightness. to feed children hung up; that is true, I said, hanging up and not as ethnic Oroqen In order to hunting as a child hanging on a tree in case the beast attacks. but that we and everyone has a beam on, whenever a child to sleep You will put him up to the mouth singing lullabies, eliminating a lot of physical adults, this tool has been extended to the nineties, now occasionally able to see . Now people know, You car on the first child will be made most rip off and sleep. Diao woman big pipe; it was handed down from the thirties of last century the habit of backcountry, and cigarettes is not yet universal, smoking men have waist not on a small pipe, but also pay attention to the ropes to fasten the jewelry in the pockets of smoke, much like the VIPs jade waist, while women who smoke at home when they played a long pole with a large pipe.
mother pipe rod usually about half a meter long, mostly shot by Umi made, in the middle there is a thin channel, smoking can be considered a lot of pipe oil (nicotine), which are heavy smokers good, brass Yandai Guo, Jiang Shi (agate stone) made from cigarette holder, never heard in his mouth slightly teeth. the mother's pouch has proved very useful, when neighbors have a Toutengnaore when adults and children to the mother will come to discuss a little bit of fat attached to the pipe at the temple, heard in the role of nicotine can treat vomiting, toothache, and evil spirits na, today sounds quite Xuan Hu's??? the children increased, between frequent fighting, his mother became the supreme judge, Yan Daiguo mm into the mother's arms as a nineteenth-like law enforcement Ting Zhang, childhood and I often get some very naughty punished, and I always have to beware of Lin Xing Yan Daiguo of the sometimes astonishing speed the mother, I have not found her in the left, that mouth of brass Yan Daiguo will heavily hit in my head, my mother's side is not easy to make mistakes. For this reason, I often take advantage of her absence, or for his passage through the tobacco stems pipe when the rod of her truncated to reduce the scope of her attack, this little secret of his mother, has not found now know that the behavior of a rebellious mentality, we can see I'm still making mistakes, you can not endure Yanguo ,,,?< br> Our meal done, the mother finished her story, she has not eaten just knock knock (drained) would pack up sucking the Yandai Guo dishes to go. we kids playing in the play, the school's school, the work to work, no one is to ignore the mother's hunger full. until One day I suddenly insights and found that the mother does not take the initiative to eat the purpose and reason, is to let the children eat more, eat some. Rice left the mother to eat a hot and cold disregard, when the rice came from a mother will Shuaguo silently out of the house to do the dishes,,, the mother to the family she never provided to any person to appetite, but secretly set ourselves demanding standards of food, today it seems what language should we use to assess the mother has done for us all. finally compare carefully sisters, when mothers did not eat with us, the sister always secretly set aside some of the food on the left next to my mother, my mother will know after the loud against the But they also do not know the mother, from that moment I often eat a half-full of standards, or drink a little rice soup, the stomach can sustain it on the line. We often looked at his mother's laughing, but my heart burst burst as worse than crying, and I hope I grow up quickly to support the family, and even at home I hope I can give to others in order to reduce the burden of home,,, there is not a proper story called bite crazy killing each other, the dead into the food, the living to continue fighting until the last one to survive, people party to remove it. may sound like a very cruel, they can be compared to human eating each other to keep them alive, and human in the same conditions and they have to bear children in the neighborhood often bun fight with the size of the head, the same in every family we felt the taste of the kind of suffering. scores years later, when my In the continuation of the life, children's wear are as winter approaches and the gum tree, and every summer, the boy can run and play naked, big people do not have to worry about their hot and cold, called the . once again became a cotton wadding, cotton trousers, quilts. I found that boys do us more harm than good work is a cotton-padded shoes. because we are too naughty, and often adults do not give us the second pair of shoes, we sandals had mouth, thrown to help, missed the end of the. often tied up in other people throw away our feet are broken cotton shoes, no matter what kind of shoes, as long as the foot on the line sets, the children have learned how to use the corn leaves, grass, fur bag feet warm way, and sometimes to wear to stick with the Po cotton woven straw sandals, very comfortable, two or three days after the shoes will rot away.
in my elementary school fourth grade, when not cotton shoes for my feet to worry about, cotton shoes worn open to help drain the end of the cold winter often reveal my heels and toes. in a room operation, the school teachers and students lined up to walk when I happened distress, under the soles off my right foot, the uproar from the sole plate under the insole channeling out, beat against the ground, next to the girls kept looking to me, suggesting I happened, my heart feel awful, I do not know how we go, pride was hurt, the face with the soles already affixed to the ground flapping sound, impossible to walk with the team, leaving the team afraid of the teacher refused, so he under the rapid I ran to the toilet and get rid of the bird off the foot of the insole, bare soles of the feet directly step in the snow, feet like a needle stabbing pain, like fire the red face, indeed the smell of urine .
frostbitten feet when the kids is a very common thing. older sister's foot is like frostbite, frostbite every winter, the site often fall ill, then no frostbite medicine, only water or chicken with eggplant seedlings feet of water,UGGs, at that time, although it is also a rationale can not tell was the only way to solve.
then the child, adults are wearing a dull, dominated by blue-black, blue cloth is the only way to see a clothing fabrics, most women are wearing old clothes with dajin, no matter how the clothes are mostly to be with a patch, the patch is varied, with different styles complement his to different places, people love described the clothes sentence is movies often appear with patches of clothing scene. the number of children can bring blessing to the family, more children can give parents pension nail in the coffin, a blessing or a curse, was not conclusive, but children can be treated the father has a brilliant exposition: Pig money in the bank, the interest rolling interest, compound interest, but old people, money everywhere dutiful son, era father confusion than daughters,
increase in the child, the family's living environment is extremely dirty, old clothes to give a sense of inertia, and no one to care about clean clothes, and the Mai Tai, had sex Today, the old cloth may be broken tomorrow mended his clothes dirty and sometimes the surface of the collar cuffs like blacksmith, cotton in the thick layer of grease dirty clothes when you feel very cold morning, but not close, patch The following will give birth to a lot of lice can be caught in endless grasping people, I sometimes learn to look like adults, take off clothes and sit around the brazier next to grab Guangzhebangzi lice, each one will be caught up with a small bottle play or thrown in the fire on the hearth, perhaps a small one can hear the sound and saw a small group of soot in the beating, the heart recovers the blood seems to like the same uncomfortable. during the day than the day clothes are Paste the wall crevices to climb out, into your bed and sucked your blood, every day you do not have a restful sleep, third brother is also very small, very heavy sleep (solid), for his well The rest, I do not know how many times he was driving up for the middle of the night bugs, bright red blood stains on the pillow of death increased with the bugs, but also the growth of the black over time. However, these tiny parasites in people's lives full of infectious diseases, harm is great.
What is more, so you have to hooding and sleep every night is the home of rodents, with the intensification of rodents, people often say trouble Tokyo But Yuenao Yue Huan. They gather in small groups in our family and neighbors potato pit walls between holes within a continuous shuttle road, every night, rats will go home through the cave ceiling papered grazing slurry paste, they are channeling a bite jump. channeling sound great run we can not sleep, sometimes, the mouse has a bag with holes in the paper shed at running, but also accidents, fall, fall asleep on the floor or hit people face. rodent seriously troubled home life, neighborhood cats alone is caught a never-ending, so I and the whole family together to find ways to eradicate rats, in addition to his father every day to the next clip in the North outside the kang kang off slightly at the Kangxi, lifting adobe,UGG boots clearance, put bait killed mice, to the middle of the night was falling from time to time in the adobe voice screamed and woke to the sound of rats, mice uniforms to go with the family and re-lift The new I remember a neighbor choice.
health conditions at the time the basic necessities of life, whether it is bad, and there can not be said to be the mother's laziness on the mother in the middle age and the environment due to the fatigue life of hard and too early to suffering rheumatoid arthritis and bone hyperplasia. thick joints are deformed her hands and feet, are very difficult to walk and work, family, clothing, quilts are two young sisters in batches with the help of propeller wash. quilt in six months or a year to wash again. be the first look dirty, thick greasy mud issued fishy smell of sweat, except when sleeping family, grandmother (Lao Lao) have a thick mattress, the other people who do not mat The. adobe Dacheng difficult to have a heated kang complete Kangxi, kang the fine soil surface at any time will be with sweat and urine stick to the quilt.
it is the detergent is a single, monthly matt r l ticket supply is the only soap detergent cut pitiful, in our family as it has only soap to wash your face, but also the economical use. that the more affluent neighbors month bought the laundry soap, we will feel regret and waste. my mother every washing, most of the ash is alkaline water, or small items to be washed for some time or taking a dip in homemade soap to deal with what can the. Speaking of homemade soap for me, it was the discovery of a manufacturing technology, but also the technology practice of the first lesson, the relationship between oil, only know that whenever Which butcher, the pig pancreas (commonly known as Lian shaving) was thrown away due to inability to eat, not knowing this is the raw material to do a good soap, I will put it to retrieve Stone will be the smashed plane, into the surface of alkali, the regiment into small groups, air-dried, it becomes what we call homemade Yizi (soap, washing was generally wash )......twice, often improvised in a big mud bowl wash the first pass, because this basin of water with alkali or soap in it is not easily drained, mixed with water from the clear change from the initial yellow to white , and from white to gray, beginning after the bubble burst in return was hanging in the pot floating around the washboard, the mud was on the laundry, mother and sister were holding his hands out of those muddy water into the other or throw a pot and then continue to wash, white and light colored clothing washed and began to wash dark clothes. Finally, a second rinse (through clothing) through the efforts of one or two days they finally accumulate a long time down and dirty clothes, wash the quilt, and hand skin and nails are soaked in water rot bear, distressed people can look tired mothers and sisters without a complaint, although the two sisters at a very early age, can and compared to other people's children to mature a lot, perhaps as early as the poor child-headed because of it, my sister's intervention to help a lot of busy mothers,Discount UGG boots, but also to the elderly some hope.
finished washing and began drying out, the long rope pulled in different directions after, also the other off to, large and small clothes, quilt cover, covered with ropes, like Wan Guoqi, even more than the expression of some kind of information can Wanguo Qi and meaning, in the cold sun in a poor family and rich, clothing and bedding, population and the number of how many men and women, young and old, etc., show the extent to others.
year after year in the past, or because the cause of many children, life distress, but the weight of our family through the breath, the mother lost her Chi tanneries should work every day and grandmother to the unit to do odd jobs together. Saddle Tizi. leather hat. skin cloak. endless dry, and never rest until h bumper year in 1966, out of three, grandmother of myocardial infarction due to sudden left us, his mother lost in life help and spiritual sustenance, when her body with Zhongxiao Fujiu threatened to cry, shoulder spirit banner, send soul westbound, I was surprised to find that old mother, in addition to our family she was no more, she appeared to be kind of lonely, shambling gait and Canada are mixed with sound of tears as people endured really piercing,,,, I suddenly seemed to understand her mother, , younger sister, brothers, we have to help the helpless mother, who can?